He thought he was ready. He jumped. He fell short. He went back to the grind to prepare more. A few weeks later he thought he is ready now. He jumped again. He fell short again. He went back to grind. A few months later he thought he is ready. He jumped. He fell short again. He went back to the grind. A few years later he thought of trying again. He jumped and this time he cleared the distance.
They say, we must engage in positivism and control our feelings. They say we should try to be happy. I tried. I failed. No matter how hard I try to control myself, I am swept away by my emotions everytime. To pretend to be happy, I have to kill a part of my soul. I am unable to do that. Now I don’t look for appreciation from the outside world. I want to recognize my innerself and respect my own feelings. I have learnt; to be true to self is real happiness.
The story must be told only when someone is willing to listen. No matter how inspiring it is. No matter how worthy it is. No matter how much you love someone. No matter how excited you are to share your story, it is better not to speak a word rather than it falling on deaf ears. The pain of the other person not listening is more than the untold story. Anyways, you can always tell your story to your heart. It shall always give you company.
I believe you but not when you doubt me. I don’t doubt you but I believe in myself. I will fall and I will expect you to lift me up but if you don’t, I won’t stay there for long and I shall stand up myself. I will like to walk with you but if you pull me back, I won’t stop but rather increase my speed. You may not like me but I suggest you better bet on me.
Only if you hear your own voice, you wouldn’t need to look for outside advice. You will find answers to all the questions you have. All you need is to believe in your instincts and move ahead. Some decisions will go awry. However, when this happens you won’t blame anyone else and take self responsibility. This will make you stronger in your own resolve. You can’t run on borrowed legs. You must learn to stand on your own feet.
Time is the greatest asset. If you have it, you are blessed. If you are always pressed to find time, you need to rethink about your priorities in life. You can take care of your body only if you have. You can take of relationships only if you have time. You can pursue your hobbies only if you have time. Tomorrow is a myth. You may be late. You must have time today. Take charge of your time. Use it on things that you value most.
We are living in a world where we judge success with professional achievements. It’s an environment where someone who is always busy is looked upon as effective as compared to someone having a lot of free time for self; where toplines are considered more important than making lifelong relationships; where luxury cars in the yard is the expected benchmark rather than having someone in your heart. Still, you have a choice.
It is so difficult to find a purpose in life. Once I decide on a particular thing, something else seems to be more important and worthy. After all, I have got one life and I want to be absolutely sure about its purpose. However, half of my life is over and I am still undecided. Against this, if I pursued few of the things that came my way, it would have been so much more worthwhile. Today, I understand; when I take a step forward, I am sure to find a way ahead.
The sound of flowing water tells me I am complete in myself. The fragrance of the breeze makes me feel my worth. The towering trees tells me I too can grow. The clear sky gives me hope for tomorrow. The effortless nature gives me a signal; to live it full.
I am confused. Nothing new though. It’s been like this always. After every decision I take, I feel the other option was better. It makes me undermine my accomplishments as I think I could have achieved more. I want to be myself but always find others more worthy than me. Infront of the world, I have to pretend that I am happy though I am not. It kills me even more. I am struggling to overcome all this. I am trying.
