I made a few promises to the world. I never knew it would take a lifetime to fulfil them. I decided to give it a try. To do right was one of them. I failed a few times here but by and large I did well. They asked me not to do big talks which I could not deliver. I did fairy well on this part too as I sealed my lips. Once I was asked give up my ego. It took a while but to make it good I removed my existence. The toughest of all was to smile all the time which I managed pretty well as I almost forgot how to weep. I realised the value of promises long after I made them but I am glad I fulfilled them all.
I have come to terms that I am a bad salesman. Both professionally and personally. It is difficult for me to sell what I myself don’t buy. I also don’t know how to push people for my own gains. Probably this is the reason I never get any awards and accolades. Since I don’t look for favors, I talk straight and this works against me. I am disliked because I can’t serve people’s ego. I even tried to change. I failed. Now I have accepted the way I am. At least, I am honest with myself. Surprisingly, off late I find my tribe increasing. May be that’s my reward.
If you want to live a life of purpose the best way is to imagine what you will think when the end comes. While it may seem scary and unwarranted to consider our death but it’s inevitable and it is important that we do not regret the canvas of life that runs through our mind in those moments. Death may be the end of life but nothing could be more motivating to start living what is left. It is counter intuitive but true that the end can encourage us to begin. Realize your strength now. Take the lead. Stop dreaming. Live it now.
There are two options. We can either remain a prisoner of circumstances and live a status-quo life or we can choose to break the barriers, take risks, leave the past behind and create a future we always dreamed about. We can either live a dormant life covering up the mistakes our entire life or we can show courage to acknowledge them and start a fresh. Life is too short to compromise on a bright future just to hide an unworthy past or due to a challenging present. Break free. Expose yourself out in the open. Wash your history. Take control of the present and the future.
Initially I was disturbed. Then I got used to it. Now I feel comfortable. The thing is; I have developed an attitude of carelessness. I pay little attention to other people’s action and achievements as a role model. I don’t consider a particular event, an empirical evidence or certain breakthroughs to be a guaranteed way for growth and success in life. I have started believing that there are simply too many variables in life and there are no fixed rules. Two entirely different persons can achieve the same result walking entirely different paths. What works for you may not work for me. And so, I continue to find my own way.
At every step of life you will have a choice; to take revenge or forgive. What you choose will decide your character. You always have a choice between hate and love. What you choose will decide whether you will have peace or you will be at war with yourself. You will fall down every now and then but how far will you go depends upon how many times you choose to stand up again. Never blame the circumstances for where you are. At every step it was your call; whether to take the left or go right.
I like people who are invisible. I respect them even more if I come across their work from some other source. I have a particular liking for people who underplay their achievements. It is also important for me to know that they are like this by nature and not a strategy to influence people. Once I find such people, I adore them. I become their follower. I study them. I try to emulate them. I don’t like the trumpet blowers. I search for the unknowns who gave up the urge to be known.
It’s a unique world. Man is judged by the clothes he wear, not the mind he possesses. Words are worshipped and silence is taken as weakness. Success is overrated but respect is undermined. Being busy is considered a blessing than having freedom of time. Smartness sells at a premium whereas there are few takers of integrity. It’s going to stay like this for long. Perhaps longer than we live. I have made my choice. I am looking for a few companions. I am still waiting. What’s your choice?
Every time a word comes out of my mouth, I regret it the next moment. Yet, this habit is difficult to overcome. Whatever I speak either shows my ignorance or the intent is to seek praise about my wisdom which is self proclaimed. Either way, it doesn’t make sense to speak. On the contrary, I have noticed it is so useful to be a silent observer. When I hold my words and examine them, I realise how sharp and damaging they could be if they happen to come out. Yet, I speak them. And I regret again. The more I talk to myself the more I am convinced; there is no point talking to anyone else.
Don’t look for weekend escapes. Design a life where no escape is required. This is possible only when your work is a pleasure, not pain. This is possible only when your mind your own business, not others. You will achieve everyday freedom only when you stop being concerned about the future. When you do what is right you will feel no fatigue. When you have nothing unfinished you will have a peaceful sleep. When you don’t wait for tomorrow’s, your today’s will become beautiful.