We all have a past. A part of it is beautiful, a part painful and disturbing. I guess it is true with everyone.
When I go down the memory lane, I don’t know why but I generally don’t look for happiness. Instead, I mostly seek and search for events which were painful. I wish I could change them, erase them, rewrite them. I am unable to do it. I feel helpless. In an attempt to make my past perfect, I found I am ignoring my present which will one day become my past again.
I had to do something. And I did. Sometime back I resolved to change all this. I resolved to pay attention to my present and even if I dwell in the past, I will look for happiness. Frankly speaking, it’s not easy. I will admit that I am still struggling but my efforts have started to payoff.
I can see the difference. I have stopped blaming circumstances for my past as I can’t change it. I vowed that I will not allow my past to affect my present but learn from it so that I can shape my future. I am wired. It seems like my past, present and future are all connected. But, I will not mind to cut my past off if it becomes an obstacle rather than a milestone.
I have a past. It doesn’t mean I can’t have a future.
